...oh..my..god

Last post I made on here was nearly 2 months ago. Right when that claaayssic "4 month sleep regression" hit our little baby. I love how its time stamped here. As a very sleep deprived man, I do appreciate this.

December 12th wasnt just the last time my child slept the night in his crib. It was the last time he slept for more than 2 hours uninterrupted. The last time that little terrorist didnt demand to be held for the entirety of the night. Because since then it has been a nightly brutality.. A consistent evening humbling.

Its crazy but apparently this "regression" thing is very real. His baby brain shifs from a newborn where it's just wired to poop, eat, than sleep (not always in that order) -- to a more developed brain with sleep cycles that are firing off on all cylinders -- wanting to take in every aspect of this very interesting world he's realizing he's now in. So at the very least he's asking of us, "when i wake up - can you just hold me?"

And I dont hate it nor do I blame him. IF anything I try to appreciate this. Because he wont always ask me to hold him to go to sleep. There will be a time where I miss this. I'm well aware that I'm living in the "golden days" with this little guy.

He's 5 months now and I dont want to say the clouds are clearing - in no way, shape, or form, or sexual position (which i long for) will I say "we're out of the weeds". But I will say it has calloused over, I have accepted my fate; that I have given up all hope.

So I havent had time to really write. Or the energy to care. all i want to do is drink fresca and eat uncrustables. Im tired. Plus mama returned from maternity leave 3 weeks ago - so its been daddy day care time. And were already cooking up all sorts of fun. All sorts of projects on the horizon that i cant share yet.

But i will leave it with this note -

we are very fortunate, very grateful that either mom or dad have been able to be with the baby. Let alone the cost of day care in this god forsaken world, being able to be with him - and ensure he isnt being neglected for even a minute (not there fault/or a big problem just a personal preference) is a godsend that were able to provide.

Anyways i hope to retroactive get these recaps in.

And at the very least I want it to be known:

We're all co-sleeping - lets stop pretending its weird. Sorry we love our children.

GOOD GREAT Energy

PIO

(i'm also experiencing a regression where i can do maybe 20 pushups)

..pio?

go knicks!!!!!